Jan26

maybe cuz its my birthday
thats why i kinda like the no
hahaha

anyway
20years
if i think about it
i'm kinda touched by it
haha
even though theres still quite a while
i think

omg i have been reading manga like hell
takkoku, toxic, usogi, switch girl and now kimi no knife
all quite good

oh
and fb
the place where you can get birthday wishes from people you never talked to before
from friends you didnt know you have
from people you dont even know

...

Tricia
'before the day ends on your side, happy birthday.'

in the past this would mean so much to me
it still does
but not that much

thank you
sincerely

yesterday
WAS DAMN FUN!!!

for the first time
there's so much people in our house

Cindy came first
then i went to fetch my friends, Debs and Bao
by the time i came back all of mum's friends had arrived

then we start playing mahjong for a while
then...

...the whole lot of them came
haha
aunt and grandpa and aunt's godsis
OMG
damn crowded
then cousin with his girlfriend also came
waah by then there's totally no place to sit
haha
but damn fun

too bad they left soon
after had dinner
i think its the first time
i had friends over for dinner
very crowded again

but after mum and her friends were done
me bao and debs remained in the kitchen
and we talked about lots of stuff
mostly about our class -.=
again haha
and i told them about her
haiz~

anyway
was damn fun
would have been a perfect day
if not for...

...ME FORGETTING TO CHANGE BACK TO EARSTICK BEFORE BOOKING IN!!!

Chinese New Year!!!...

...almost finished le
haha

yesterday was quite fun
met quite a lot of relatives
i think its the most that i've seen in quite a few years
haha
almost all the relatives we visited
there were either other people there
or they arrived right after we arrived
really got ChineseNewYear feel
haha
better than going overseas

girls really change a lot huh
hur hur hur
...

TrumanShow
damn sick
love it

was reading some of my old posts
yup those few posts

made me realise
how much i used to want to talk to her
like now

made me realise
thats why i need to stay away from her
like right now

...

nothing like reading your own old posts
to realise how much you have grown
well not actually
maybe how different you are from then might be more accurate
cause i dont think i have grown at all
haha

till
i find some of the things i used to post quite
chidish, corny and just plain stupid
which i still am
haha

even though i have changed
albeit a tiny little bit
i'm still touched
haha
but i dont want to grow up T.T

memories of once loving you returns
unable to regret, unable to forget

-YuHee, the Witch-

but thats all they are...
...memories

watching
YuHee, the Witch

waching it and talking to her
a bit of that feeling came back

haha
but i'm sure its more of memory of the past
than feeling

or just in love with love
haha

yesterday
after sending YanYu off
got the chance to chat with Tricia on the train back

it really died
i'm actually more afraid than surprised
i mean i realise it when i read her blog
but
for feeling to change so easily
haiz
scary scary

to me
now she's a friend that i used to like
rather than a girl i liked
if you get what i mean
i dont really get what i mean either

anyway
felt good to talk to her

oh well
its a new year
lets start with a whole new piece of heart

i guess i should post something
to thanks the old year and welcome the new year

2011
has been a long year
a really long year
maybe cause a lot of things happened?
from working to getting into the army

but it has been fun
or rather a lot of different experiences
from working in offices
to firing guns
field camp

has it only been a year?

outside of work
didnt have much time fo anything else
drawing not much
anime, drama and movie
a bit less

as for music
i guess i'm more into it

and money
OMG I HAVE BEEN SPENDING SO MUCH!!!!
HEART BURNNSSSSZzzzzzz!!!!
haiz

2012
i know its a bit irresponsible but...

expect nothing
and you'll be surprise by everything
and disappointed by nothing

what will come will come
just spread your arms wide
and receive them gladly
be they bring smile
or tears

yesterday went out with
Tim Tricia and Yanyu

but for some reason
doesnt feel like we havent been seeing each other
for 3months
idk why

anyway
me Tim and Tricia
had to wait for YanYu for 1 hour
=.=
just like when we the previous day with Joei
so we just stood in the middle of nowhere
and talked about NS stuff
lol

when she finally arrived
we went to Nando's for dinner
there we ordered platter
and~
we talked cock some more
haha quite funny

after that we decided to do to YanYu's sis's tattoo shop
after like going in the wrong direction like 3,4 times
haha

then for some reason
they decided to go drink
then we just walk around to find a place

then i said' why dont we just go 7-eleven buy and sit somewhere'
and they were like'okay'
and i was like 0.o 'serious?'

then we just sat outside some shop
and talk lor
lol then Tim was like deciding whether he should get a girlfriend or not
and in the end they tried to decide by flipping a coin
then we kind of decide to leave after Tim made his decision LOL

...

finally got my shoes for CNY
after going to like 3,4 diff Pedro stores
but finally

went Orchard with Jarvis they all
to look for NewYear clothes

i found all that i wanna buy
hohoho
but its gonna cost me a bomb
T.T
$300+ at the very least

saw a lot of girls
hohoho

...

Merry X'mas <8{D
(suppose to be Santa)

went Orchard with Debs and her bf yesterday
asked her to help me with shopping for long pants

wah when i got there and msg her
she liked reply damn late
plus she didnt say she's already there
made me wait for quite a while
like half an hour -.=

anyway
met them at FoodRepublic
talked about NS
which like bored Debbie
haha

then walked around
Zara, Recoil then Espirit
got what i wanted

oh
when we were in Recoil
cuz Debs was irritating and i called her mum
the salesgirl was like
"She's your mum?
Wow she's damn young!"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
but shopping with her is srly like shopping with my mum

after that went to EwF for dinner
Everything With Fries
okok bah
like eating Sausage Egg McMuffin
for dinner -,-
spent most of our time there talking bout ahemahem
haha
quite funny

then went our separate way
went Taka
finally SketDance is out
haha
quite fun i guess

Friday

went out with Bao right after i booked out
went to PlazaSing for dinner

actually want to watch AppleOfMyEye one
but only one seat left
how many time do people want to watch it???

anyway
talked cock lor
from mLiang's wedding to AppleOfMyEye
cadavers to love
and uni stuff

been quite a while since i've had such a good time talking

sat->sun

went with mum for her gathering
havent seen her friends since like 5 years ago?
but i didnt really have stuff to do there

after that went to fetch sis
coming back from nepal for ocip

went to pizza hut
where she showed us all the stuff she bought
she bought a damn nice thing use for praying/meditation(?)
it like resonate
the sound damn nice

then had to wiat till 1+
for bro from taiwan
wah he bought even more stuff
bought me all the OP character book
wohoo!

today is...
MrLiang's Wedding!!!!

thought i was going to be late

anyway
the wedding was quite sweet
being in a church and everything

and the bride WAS DAMN PRETTY!!

and the exchange of vows
i always wanted to witness it
haha

oh and mliang
when he talked
it reminds me of him giving lecture
OMG miss that so much >.<
haha

went to watch movie after that
<<那些年，我們一起追的女孩>>
YouAreTheAppleOfMyEye

thought that the romance part is quite good
but overall is ok ok
but now that i think about it
it's really quite good

haha
though its a bit dirty
actually damn dirty -.-'''

love the part when guy called the girl when there was an earthquake
and they had a friend to friend talk
hope Tricia and i can be like that too

and i totally understand the part
when the guy say that
when you loved a girl, you will wish her happiness :)

it's the first time i felt so depressed
and demotivated

failed 5 times le
with 3 times being in last week alone

gah!!

i know i also say
'be disappointed but dont be demotivated'
but its hard to when you failed 3 times in a single week

IWANTTOPASS!!!!

went Airport yesterday night to see ShiJie off
infantry went to Taiwan

he must be damn sian
i would be if i'm going

...

omg
last week clubbing
i was so drunk i dont remember what i did
had to go back camp and ask them what happened

all the shit that i did T.T
apparently i tried to hit on 5 women
YES WOMEN!!
amd one of them was african
omg *smack face*
and i said that i have to find a drain that suits my personality
for me to puke

next time really have to be careful
cant drink too much and too fast

12 hours of my life!!!

lost 12hours of my life on sat nite/sun morn
as in memory loss

MEMORY LOSS IS DAMN SCARY!!

totally have no idea what i did

i finally got it
i'm in love with love

though it still stings a bit
haha

PURE EPICNESS

THAT BLEW MY

FREAKING BRAIN OUT!!!!

i guess i've finally move on

...

went to her blog
and saw her ranting about some guy

and you know the strange part?
my heart aint twisting around itself
it aint aching

in fact
i found myself like...supporting her?
like "C'mon, you can do it"
haha

but seriously
she can be too careful sometime
not that it's bad
i guess she knows that she have a shoujo filter or something
(side effect of reading shoujo manga i guess)
so she is more careful of what she's feeling

but seriously
take a leap of faith la

...

i guess i've finally move on

just read
FivePeopleYouMeetInHeaven
by MitchAlbom

dont really like the first half
only the part where Eddie met his wife in heaven
is where i got interested
which is like already at the end

damn touching
that kind of love
especially when he ask his wife to change back to her older self

despite how he felt about his life
with the war and stuff
only with his wife then does he seems to be really happy

and the part where he met the little girl
Tala
where he cried with guilt after so many decades
where he asked for forgiveness

the thing is when he was asking for forgiveness
the little girl wasnt listening to him but playing with her 'toy'
i guess what the girl wanted wasnt his apologies

...

i dont know if i'm

in love with love
in love with being in love with her
in love with the dream of being in a relationship with her

or that
i'm really really in love with her
and want to grow old with her

went Kino today
saw a Japanese lady wearing kimono
OMG damn pretty

...

TheGrandChef ended
their acting is damn good

especially ChenCai
when he won
how he looked as if he wanted to cry
but yet holding his tears back

oh and his love story
its quite funny
cause unlike other drama
he's like an idiot in love
and the way he behave in front of his girlfriend is damn funny
its more like treating her as his friend
and when he gave her flower
he look damn awkward and embarrassed
like trying to act normal
and yet he looked like he really didnt care at all
lke he's giving it for the sake of giving
HAHA

Bleach vol 52's cover is DAMN EPIC!!!

cant wait for the entire arc to finish
so i can reread the whole arc

011011

thats today's date if you dont get it

...

its been quite a while since i post le

anyway started driving
waah quite fun at the start
but then got harder

i cant multi-task

its like my hands, legs and eyes have to work independently
and yet together at the same time
kept screwing up

went up onto the kerb once
like literally boom-boom-boom
the whole vehicle going up and down
not just shaking

and i kept drifting onto the next lane
my instructor have to keep saying
'turn. turn somemore. somemore~'
haiz

going onto public road next week
damn scared
but get to drive around PasirRis
^^

TheGrandChef

its a really nice drama
cause it focus a lot on cooking
there is still romance
but its like its a part of the drama
rather than the drama itself

it really focus on the cooking and the competition
plus it also talks about the preparation
like looking for the ingredients

another thing is that there are a lot of elderly people
it talks about how the elderly have to make decisions
to let go of things and pass it to the next generation
as well as mistakes they made in the past
how the guilt eats into them
and how they try to make up for it

it would really be nice to travel around in a van or truck
and make a living as a moving grocer

but if i were to think of a future career
i want to do something that can interact with small kids

went to see Tricia off yesterday
so glad that i manage to get to see her off

didnt really talk to her
even though i sat opposite of her
its enough i guess

i dont even dare to look at her
maybe i'm afraid of falling in love with her again?
maybe i'm afraid of falling more in love with her?

or maybe i'm afraid of her knowing that i'm still in love with her?

spend the night talking with Tim and Tricia's cousin
watching Tim talk is damn funny

anyway she went in at 11.45pm

she came over to hug us
was quite weird
but it was comfortable touching her
that sounds so wrong on so many levels

anyway
dreamt that her flight was delayed and i got to see her next day

maybe that's why when i woke up today
for some reason
i really miss her
even though i didnt saw her for the past 8 months
and i only saw her twice in the past 1 week
well 3 times if you considered seeing her hair on cosfest as seeing her

oh well

saw her
good to see her again
good that i can see her one last time

so dont be greedy